Where can I share my experience with this treatment program? I feel like I could write a book about it. There were a couple of reasons why it was such a difficult decision for me to go with this program. First, the creator of this program was not famous at all. Second, there was no evident case report that this program has worked on anybody. I asked around and only response I got was it is a fraud, a cult, and hoax. Not only that, people commented that was too expensive, saying my life is already hard enough. Loosing money would only push further away from where I wanted to be.
Basically, nothing positive about it. But, I was desperate; it was my last hope, thinking that nothing worth more than my life. I thought myself this is my last effort before I die. If I have read one case report I wouldn’t have not wasted four months, looking for some answers; lawyers, counselors, pastors, and psychic. Those four months were definitely the worst and darkest time in my life.
We have a river by my house. I have attempted suicides repeatedly with my youngest one, who was only 3 months old. I wish there was someone who noted me about this program a little bit earlier. Someone who could told me that there is a hope to this pain/sorrow/darkness inside of me… I would have not shared my pain/wounds with my love ones. That was the stupidest and dumbest thing I have ever done, talking to my sister about my pain everyday. Only if I could’ve known this a little bit earlier…
It’s a long way to reach my goal, to heal completely, but I am not giving up. My endless effort will continue. Till the day I won’t look for his guidance anymore only because I found my own happiness without being lost ever again.
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