It was really hard at first. Then, as I proceeded with the treatment, I kept being surprised at the result. I am still being surprised. I had no clue what it means by 'your life will change'. Now, I think I know a little what it means.
All my worries for the future and all my regrets for the past seem to be meant for my learning how I have to rebuild my attitude and my life. It has been the most precious time that will never come again.
I would not have hesitated so much if I had known that I would be this much closer to happiness after treatment. I guess it applies to everyone. Fear for my future was my first huddle to admit and overcome.
Once I tried and got better, it became easier to try and find the doors of happiness. Of course, some doors were closed and others were hard to open. Still others had been open before I tried. The thing is that I don't find it difficult to try and maneuver in my life anymore. I seem to enjoy trying. I guess life is opening and passing through the doors you choose.
Above all, I feel that I have found myself back. I really can't express this feeling with words. Everyone's life is precious including mine. This astonishing experience of correcting myself and viewing the world correctly makes me think that I am lucky to be living in an era where such treatment is available.
I still have a long way to go and I know I will go through many doors. For now, I am happy to be able to cherish every moment I am with my loved ones.
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