I could sense that my husband had changed a bit,
but I just assumed that he was also going through some tough time like others in their 40s.
I thought it would just pass naturally.
After all, we had been happily married for more than 10 years.
I had never imagined that he would have an affair.
I was completely at a loss
when I found out that he was actually having an affair.
I had insomnia, was extremely irritable,
lost more than 10 pounds in a week, and even missed my cycles.
I was looking for causes I could never figure out.
I blamed myself for all possible things.
I kept trying to find some solutions.
Everyday felt like a year.
I was in pain every moment I was awake.
I even thought about taking drastic actions.
I hesitated to take the treatment since it seemed expensive and time consuming.
I became dependent on Youtube videos.
They gave me temporary comfort and consolation, but didn't solve any problem.
One day, it just occurred to me that I had children.
My children….
They were studying my face constantly.
I suddenly came to my senses.
'What have I done to them?
I can't let my children be miserable no matter how much pain I have.'
I began to take KIP Treatment Program.
My children began to change for the better
as my wounds were treated through watching training videos and doing therapeutic tasks.
I regret that I wandered about and hesitated for a few months before taking the treatment. However, I am grateful to myself that I made a right choice.
I want to praise myself for not destroying myself further,
not wandering about for too long,
learning about Korea Institute of Psycho-education,
and focusing on my treatment.
I am still going forward to build happiness.
I am trying to protect my precious life and my children.
Your decision may make the difference of night and day.
If you are hesitating even today, I suggest you should give it a try and try hard.
You will see what it means by the difference between knowing and not knowing about human mind.
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